Sunday, May 28, 2006

...And the Good Start Ends...

I'm not going to go into detail about what happened, but let's just say that a life altering event occurred just moments ago and I am deeply hurt by it.

No one died or got hurt, or anything like that. It's nothing physical, but rather emotional and spiritual. It's a long and complicated story, but suffice it to say that what just happened has cut me to the very soul.

I did see it coming sort of, but having it actually take place is far more jarring than I could have imagined.

I'm okay, this won't destroy me or anything, it's just very hard to deal with and in the rare case anyone involved happens to read this I am very hurt and feel betrayed to the utmost degree. But as I said, I expected it and I'll survive and be the better man for it. God bless you all, I still love you all no matter what.

Needless to say, while I'll still be busy doing what I do, I may not be as vocal this week. Then again I may be more vocal as I tend to talk a lot or none at all when I'm upset. Just depends.

At some point maybe I'll be able to talk about it, but right now it's just too hard.

And this has nothing to do with a love interest or family. Like I said it's complicated and very hard to explain. I just wanted to get it out as this blog at times has become a sort of therapy for me to let out the frustrations of life.

I feel like screaming or punching right now, but I am oddly calm and reserved. I feel slapped in the face basically, and that's the best way to describe what I'm going through right now.

Anyway, I'm not looking for sympathy or pity, or whatever. I'm just getting it off my chest in what happens to be a method that potentially thousands of people can read. lol.

What can I say? Sigh. Such is life.

B-Out

2 comments:

Jason Berek-Lewis said...

Hey, Email me or PM me at creatorfuze if I can help in any way.

Brant W. Fowler said...

Thanks man.